By Calista Shang ’20

By Calista Shang ’20

I LIKE THIS PLACE SO MUCH MORE
NOW THAT I’VE STOPPED THINKING ABOUT YOU
HOW YOU RUINED IT LIKE YOU RUINED ME TOO

You’re a work of art
I’d hang up in my room
Opposite of my bed
So I could wake up to you

I’ve been missing
Waking up at 5AM
Just to see you
Sitting on the sand alone
Spending time where we feel at home
Watching you from far away
Seeing you brace the waves
Feels like a perfect day
Just because I’m with…
you

I’m choking on the words to say
You’re fire eating at my oxygen
Please stop pushing and pulling

I’m still awake, it’s 5AM
Stumbling in the middle of the street
Tripping over words that I can’t believe

Heart beats out of my chest
Words coming out with no breath
Now I’m feeling broken
Wondering how you feel too
Can you give me something
Can I just have you

I’m so lost I just need to find a way
As these walls start pulling me away
I’ll keep pretending that I’m okay
But all I want is for you to…
stay.

I’m waking up
Warming my hands on
A cracked coffee cup

I’ve forgiven but I won’t forget
I’ll find a way to live without it.